the counting game (part 1)

seven...are the times that you cross my hazy mind
in every minute that goes by, you know it's all of you
your illuminary face has left my heartsight be blind
for either love or deception left me without a clue.

six...are the billions of people in the planet
yet all i ask for is the one thing never to be granted
for amidst the every desire that i humbly have wanted
it was your unreturned love that left me dumbfounded.

five...are the letters that spell out your name
my heart longed to own it but never was meant to be
was the spirit that walked beside me to be blamed
for you let me say it like i was your ONE and only?

four...are the years that have soaked me under the rain
as you walled around yourself and took another step
away to the life that you never could bare again
my half-built existence plunged into a fruitless death!

three...are the meaningful words that you never said
cause by any chance my feelings to you seemed absurd
although my heart wasn't afraid, took the risk and fell
your "i love you" was the very last thing i heard.

two...are the hands that longed to keep you protected
yet you never held me close for a chance to be alive
the long walk under the new moon never really existed
was it a mind trick played in my fate's undone design?

one...is the you that i can't and won't replace
your voice, your touch, your smile crowd my every night
the unreleased devil that held the sweetest face
perpetually remain in my dreams til break of light.

zero...is the chance that an "us" could've been
if only you had given this immortal heart a try
now what's left are fading thoughts of you and me
and upon my cheeks, the tears that i cannot hide.

it used to be sweet when you were a lil' child counting
now you see that this grown boy has refused to move on
for if only i could bring it back to our first meeting
i'd risk to live another life for you to love me all along.