the broken tatsulok (part 2)

i.
used to dream of you
of how your touch would feel on my skin
and how your breath would smell.

i.
never thought you'd hit me this way
an unexpected desire to hold you longer
a tragic curse and magic spell.

i.
have someone in my life now
worthy of all the diamonds on the planet
longevity is what we're after.

i.
was taken by surprise
by how you managed to uproot my beliefs
and rattle my feelings for my lover.

i.
don't know who's to pursue whom
left me in a triangle without corners
all i see are dead ends.

i.
am to hurt you or my lover
somewhere in a position that's hell
of a choice i never thought i'd be in again.

i.
lost myself in your eyes
gravitated to your unmovable strength
shook me to the very core.

i.
used to be alright and contented
with how i lived my day to day
now you made me wonder if there's more.

i.
need some time to think
be by myself and drown the noise
until i hear my heartbeat's peace.

i.
know there's no easy way
for i might end up losing you both
but i have got to do this.

i.
put this burden upon the two of you
as i hang a rope around my neck
this is suicide and birth altogether.

i.
am sorry for hurting you
as i am happy to be holding you
for i am to love one and say goodbye to another.